So this is going here. A post. Mostly because I don't know where else to expel this.
Our life has been so crazy busy, what with a 5 and 2 year old, roller derby, family nights, snowboarding days and brew days we have just been going non stop and enjoying it for the most part.
So last night husband wanted to be intimate. unfortunately I did not. My reason was that the day was so busy and I was tired from it all. He said how good I looked since I lost a crapload of weight and it is the best I have looked since I met him. Wow. What a compliment. THEN, he said how he felt all gross and fat cause he's been drinking beer, which goes along with making it apparently. Well shit. How the heck do you respond to that?
I said, I don't know what to say to that.
Then he said good night and turned over.
The truth is, he basically nailed it on the head as to why we are not sleeping together more. How shallow, vain and assholey does that sound? I feel like a jerk even thinking it.
I have been working very hard to get fit. J? Not so much. How do you say, or do you even say, babe, you need to lose weight so I will find you attractive enough to sleep with.
Ugh. Bleh.
If I bring it up he will probably tell me that well, I take all the free time so he has no time to exercise. I know he hates gyms, Its getting warmer out so chances to snowboard will lessen. I don't know how to go about this. I do feel a little better getting it out of my head, its been consuming me lately. I've even started looking at other guys. Which I have never thought of before.
Maybe I just need to get less attractive.
Psh.
